IDENTITY TRANSITIONS: The Moment I Realized I Wasn't As (______) as I Thought! [pt. 1]

Watching Woody Allen in "Scenes from a Mall" and realizing I identify more with his whiney, nasal, complaining character than I do with John Wayne (unless there's an emergency or damsels in distress!). In that movie, he's pretty full of himself and sees himself as able to bed any beauty he desires (of course he's rich so it may be true -- especially in LA) and that anyone would be lucky to have him because of his superiority to most other human beings. Bette Midler laughs in amazement at his vanity -- while I wept in recognition of how I must have occurred (occur?) to the local Springtucky Hillbillies. They must just look at my broken-ness and as they've been walking away in their flannel shirts and boots, leaving me alone to contemplate my suit-and-tie navel, they just shake their heads in disgusted disbelief as to how such a shithead can think he's so superior simply because he has a higher education and a professional license.

So, here we can fill in the blank in the title of this post with anything: Smart; Good looking; a good catch; a good friend; a good family member; blah-blah-blah;

CAREER TRANSITIONS: The unemployable "curse" is broken

Yay! Friday, the 28th of April, 2006 -- I got my first "job" with someone I didn't know who paid me by the hour (a whopping $10/hr and glad to get it! Although down a bit from the $120,000.00 a year gig I was used to!) I made $50 gross and will probably be able, at today's prices, to pay for 3/4 of a tank of gasoline! Thanks to G.R. at Personnel Source (temp agency) and to Medical Weight Loss Centers of Oregon. It was a great atmosphere with a brand new company that is going to go places if the working environs and the folks therein generating same are any indication. I got to have my "ice cold, after-work beer" and it has not tasted so good in many years.

Thanks to all for the change in state and keep your fingers crossed that I continue to get work more than $50 every six months (I'm dealing with losing my residence, phone, medications, etc., as it is, but that's another story -- q.v.)

PS -- I need to gain some expertise in microsoft word! No one except lawyers seem use wordperfect which, of course, is my wordprocessor of choice.

College Recruiter.com link

Here's the link to a useful site aimed at college recruitment but probably not bad for all levels attempting to get back into a new position.

http://www.collegerecruiter.com/

TRANSITIONS TO REGENERATION -- Now That We Know ( ...what we didn't know then ). --: Update Blog - Re-focus

TRANSITIONS TO REGENERATION -- Now That We Know ( ...what we didn't know then ). --: Update Blog - Re-focus

Update Blog - Re-focus

For the first part of the blog, I was going through a transition in my long-term relationship of going on 8 years. These years, for the most part, are "lost years" due to heavy "self-medication," although they warrant writing about in a different forum. That relationship has shifted, although it is not yet come to a final rest.

Now, however, the issue has shifted to money and employment. It has been thus for these past three years, really but has come to a head with the break-up of my household with my former fiance. However, henceforth, I would like to shift this blog to speak of the experience of being middle aged, professional, white-male, displaced from work and family, bankrupt, and the process of managing this state into something new, if possible.